This journal entry was written by Dale and Jan at the beginning of their fourth week studying Act in Doctrine, a new book written by Elder David Bednar.
At this time we are holding on tight to our testimony and conversion. In fact, we are using all the strength that we have to make it through a difficult time. We found out tonight that our son’s cancer is a lot more advanced than we had been told and the doctors think he only has a short while to live. If I didn’t have my faith that the gospel is true and that this is another step needed towards our eternal progression I would be having a really hard time with the thoughts of losing a son to a disease that has spread so fast in just a couple of weeks. We are grateful for priesthood blessings of comfort, for family and ward support and for the time we have had with Zane. We have hope and faith in the gospel that it is true and that we will all return to him who gave us this opportunity to come to this earth.
The progress I hope to make is to be more diligent in pondering the truths that I read in the scriptures. Sometimes I don’t understand all that I read, but I know that it bring me closer to the Lord. At this time I need that closeness and that comfort that the Savior provides. Our focus right now is on our son who is in a serious health condition which can take his life. I look to the gospel and to prayer to give me strength to function. Life is hard right now. My testimony is solid. I know that my Redeemer lives and loves all his children. I think that it looks as though the Lord is about ready to welcome my son, another one of his children home. I feel sad about that but the scripture quoted in the book is giving me comfort at this time, ”Always retain in remembrance, the greatness of God, and your own nothingness, and his goodness and long-suffering towards you…” God is aware of our challenges and will help us through our trials.