This journal entry was written by Michele at the beginning of her third week studying Act in Doctrine, a new book written by Elder David Bednar.
As I’ve read Act in Doctrine, I’ve felt (numerous times) the need to apply the Atonement more frequently in my life and to make the sacrament a more personal experience. I felt it again as I read various scriptures that describe conversion. Mosiah 3:19 talks about putting off the natural man and becoming a saint. It explains that this is done “through the Atonement of Christ the Lord.” Likewise, in Mosiah 27: 24-25, Alma says that he has experienced spiritual rebirth because he repented of his sins and was redeemed of the Lord. In 2 Corinthians 5:17, it says, “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature.” The significance of Christ really stuck out to me in these scriptures. Conversion and change is possible because of Christ and His Atonement. I have faith in Christ and I definitely have used the Atonement in my life for both repentance and comfort, but do I use it often enough? I make mistakes daily, so if I am not applying the Atonement daily then I must be getting further from God and from the person I desire to be.
Elder Bednar explains that conversion is a “consistent application of the knowledge we have received.” I know that when I am not consistent in coming closer to Christ I am falling further from Him, so I should be consistently accessing the Atonement. I also don’t feel like I am taking full advantage of the sacrament. Am I wasting this opportunity to have a personal experience with the Lord and to change little by little each week? I’m certain that improving my sacrament observance would strengthen my foundation in Christ and increase the importance of the Atonement in my life.
I can’t omit the Savior from my life. I focus a lot of my thinking on the Holy Ghost and the scriptures, but I need to recognize where those messages and promptings come from: Jesus Christ. He makes all things possible. He is the one who enables me to overcome my imperfections and I need to allow Him to do that in my life. Many times in my life, I have been better at certain aspects of the gospel and I’ve wondered why I’m not as good at those things now. Now I can see the reason is because I have not let the Atonement of Christ truly CHANGE me in those ways, but I have teetered between my levels of commitment.
So… my new goal is to learn more about the Atonement and the sacrament and to discover how to fully access them in my life.