This journal entry was written by Michele at the beginning of her seventh week studying Act in Doctrine, a new book written by Elder David Bednar.
I’ve been reading Act in Doctrine for seven weeks now and it has become so much more than simply reading the book. I’ve learned a lot, but the promptings and feelings I’ve had while reading have lead me to begin a process of changing and acting instead of just reading and learning but never doing. With that said, I have yet to make all of the changes I have felt prompted to, but I’m working in that direction.
My ward hasn’t had a normal Sacrament Meeting in a couple of weeks because of the Brigham City Temple Dedication and Regional Conference, so this Sunday was the first time I took the sacrament in 2 weeks. In my prayers for the last couple of weeks, I’ve been trying to apply the Atonement more and set daily goals to reach them. However, I’ll admit that I’ve failed pretty often. My prayers have been important because I’ve needed to repent and decide to start over. Taking the sacrament meant even more to me because I really knew that I needed to be cleansed and was so much more grateful for the Savior. I still have a lot of work to do to have the experiences during my prayers and during sacrament meeting that I know I can have, but slowly I’m moving forward.
I need the Atonement. I need the sacrament. I need the Spirit. I need prayer. And I need the Savior. I can’t live without any of those things if I want to make the BEST decisions in my life. I need those things to lead me to ultimate happiness and too often I try to live with only some of them. I’m grateful to be realizing all the God has given me to help me come back to Him and I hope I can keep working to use all those things to be my best.