This journal entry was written by Michele at the beginning of her sixth week studying Act in Doctrine, a new book written by Elder David Bednar.
Today I read Elder Bednar’s talk, The Tender Mercies of the Lord, which is listed as a related reading for chapter 1 of Act in Doctrine. Before reading, I listened to church music while cleaning and immediately the Spirit was reminding me of all my blessings and filling me with gratitude. The Lord perfectly prepared me for Elder Bednar’s talk before I even decided to read it!
I feel very overwhelmed as I think about all of the tender mercies that the Lord has shown me, even just today. It’s clear to me that He is coming to me constantly and He is aware of my needs ALWAYS. As Elder Bednar quoted, Psalms 145:9 says, “The Lord is good to all; and his tender mercies are over all his works.”
I’m one of His works. He gave me my body, my family, my life, and a way to come back to Him, and yet everyday He continues to come to me and give me more. I feel so blessed. But I also think, “Am I coming to Him as often as He is coming to me?” The last couple of days have been really busy and my schedule has been different from usual, so my scriptures study has consisted of a short chapter at night followed by a sleepy prayer. It’s better than nothing at all, but the pondering and coming to the Lord that I so desperately need and owe Him, has not been there. Still, the Lord sees me and comes to me when I imperfectly and unenthusiastically come to Him. I feel incredibly humbled and full of desire to serve Him by serving others and to come unto Him through earnest prayer. My goal to serve more will continue, but I also want to study more about prayer and figure out what I can do to improve my prayers.
I am so indebted to the Lord. He has given me everything and I am very grateful that He is so aware of me. With these blessings, however, comes great responsibility and I want to show Him that I will use all He has given me to become a better servant and person. I can’t forget to come unto Him. I love Jesus Christ and know that He lives. I must always live to show that knowledge and I must decide everyday to be more than mediocre.